boring

my blog is omg boring. soooo boring.

i haven't taken pictures in a gazillion years.

i haven't had a all-girls/bestie outing in a gazillion years too.

happy birthday Shan; thank you for your love. i can't say much cos there's too much to say, but you're really THE most wonderful woman i've met in my life. It would have been impossible if not for you. Thank you. & i'm sorry.

tomorrow is Labour Day. Mummy is working -.- Dad is going Malaysia with his friends for 3 days to fish. And i'll be alone again, with big aunty bugging me with the pain. D:

at least until Quek comes with the dvds!

tell me i still can be this happy

D:

big aunty come alreadyyyyyyyy.

D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D:

anticipation

i brought my mega maxi uber long 40cm absorber to school anticipating my dearest Big Aunty to come.

It was suppose to visit me yesterday, cos it did on march the 27th!!!

SHE IS ONE DAY LATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

please please don't let it coincide with syf. D:

SIYING HATES MENSES.

COUNTRY B & COUNTRY C

YESTERDAY

i reached PP horribly early and went for breakfast with Quek. After which band practice is self-explanatory i do not have to describe much. The process itself was, fulfilling and fruitful. 11 days to SYF, i was just going through Overture 2 in my head on the way back home and could almost imagine Kelly Tang's eyes on me waiting to see if i played those semi quavers correctly. Sometimes music can be so horribly painful, especially when accuracy and clarity is concerned.

HAPPY 3RD! (wrt yesterday) we went shopping at Wisma. I was desperately in need of retail therapy (in fact anything nice to cover those fats that were dancing because of the body hugging tee i was wearing; i forgot to try it on before bringing it to school) but to my disappointment nothing in f21 caught my eyes. And the queue was long so the idea to purchase something there was quickly dismissed. Next then was Topshop/Topman our alltime favourite. I tried on a few tops but some were so body hugging can literally see my layers of fats dancing D: Some were too baggy. Shoes are nice but not very interesting. So instead, because of my persistence that i MUST get something, i bought two very cute knickers.

I didn't take pictures. Damn gross la to put online. After that we went PS (Gayle's hangout hahaha). If not for the swensens' voucher i have, i don't think i would step into PS. went to Fox and i bought a dress and flip flop YAY! spent $80 and got a pair of movie pass, available for the next 365days, any time, any day, any movie :D good deal riiight.

And then it was dinner. not to forget on the way there on the bus, we just gave each other a hug and this aunty went "this is a public bus you know". IT WAS JUST A QUICK HUG. I replied her "freedom of expression please". Is she jealous that she got no one to hug?!

Stupid act-chio-buey-chio act-cool-buey-cool couple sat beside us. I have no idea why they kept laughing when Quek and i exchange presents. You mean you people don't celebrate anniversaries? Such a pity. I pray that both of you won't lose the spark even though you don't celebrate the love you share and stop laughing at other couple when you're obviously in envy.


Quek did this for me. Damn chio please. Thanks for all the effort! *he slotted msgs behind each photo*
I gave him a Topman tee he wanted hahaha.


TODAY

super suey day please. Went out of the house for church and it started pouring i had to take a cab. After service went off to town to meet Quek. He was practicing for his sister's wedding; he's gonna play two damn sexy songs. I shall describe this boring process because its kinda interesting to me (how ironic)

I alighted at orchard and walked to Shaw house to buy my all-time fav bubble tea. After which i proceeded to walking in the rain to fareast plaza. Whilst crossing the overhead bridge, some weird man looked back and ask me "are you singaporean" i was like "yah". then he said "you look like a foreigner" and i scurried down the escalator faraway from the weirdo. I stood at the busstop waiting for Quek's reply. Then i decided to take the same route, BACK to Wheelock. I went borders and browse through magazines and i bought a cute pencil case!


Walked back to fareast AGAIN, this time with Quek. I told him bout the weird man incident and i shouldn't divulge what he said. but, the summary being I LOOK LIKE AN INDONESIAN MAID sobxzxzxxz I KNOW I DO I WISH I KNOW HOW TO GET RID OF THE TAN.

We had dinner (?) and went to the salon. This is where the warning begins.

NEVER VISIT THIS SALON EVER AGAIN. I think i shouldn't reveal the name, that'd be very evil of me. But its at level 5? We spent an hour in the shop. It took them 20mins to wash my hair, 30mins to dry it, and 10mins to trim it. WTH.

and the young lady who blew dry my hair, she made it so straight and flat i was immediately nostalgic (in a bad way), of my lower sec days when i had rebonded hair. DAMN LIAN. I totally hated my own reflection. After she finish, another woman came to help me trim my hair and she smelled like so bad the tobacco filled my lungs and i was so repulsed by it. I couldn't concentrate on anything at all as the smell took hold of my senses. IT WAS SO GROSS.

I walked out of the shop feeling like i paid $20 to make myself a Lian, all over again?


THUS, NEVER AGAIN WILL I SET FOOT ON THAT SMELLY SHOP.
because those slow people took 1 hour with our hair, i had to say goodbye to Quek even when it felt like i only met him for 10minutes.

Trip back home was 190 was horrendous as the m**d sitting next to me was singing, horribly off tune. Oh well, freedom of expression!

and it was worse on 975 (yes i take weird bus service no.s home). This is a very sensitive issue but it has been bugging me for a very good number of years. As usual many workers boarded the bus. Usually i will sit at the outside seat because i am afraid that when i alight the bus i would be violated. PLEASE don't say i am overreacting or insensitive or inconsiderate. Try taking 975 and you will know. I know i am not hot or sexy or pretty at all, but it's just a fear, and protection? Usually, country B will not insist on sitting next to you because as mentioned in the papers before, they always try to avoid Singaporeans and keep to themselves, fear of inviting unnecessary trouble and the sense of rejection they might get by merely looking into the eyes of the locals. And i totally respect them, as you know, they don't make alot of noise too on the public transport.

However, a few years ago unfortunately country C has begin to flood our island. As much as i wish to view them as precious possessions to our nation, but A HANDFUL OF SINGAPOREANS ARE UNEMPLOYED AND HUNGRY AND HOMELESS BUT THE G GOES ON HIRING SO MANY FW, CAN SOMEBODY EXPLAIN TO ME THE LOGIC IN THIS?

I've tried hard and long enough and i cannot lie to myself. I don't really fancy them. Even my neighbourhood is affected. I am not a nation-cist (i think). It's just the way they behave, really puts me off. Because this particular person insisted on sitting next to me and i quickly moved off as i was alighting soon. AND IMMEDIATELY HE PUT UP HIS SMELLY FEET AND SHOUTED OUT TO HIS FRIEND INVITINGLY TO SIT NEXT TO HIM. and they laughed, and talked, and laughed.

I reflected and told myself that i MUST learn to act in a civilized manner in public. I mean, there is no need to hide your true self but there is no need too to infringe upon others because of your nonsense.

Let us all have blessed pleasant trips on our public transport.

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I know, its an uber long post. Very unlike me but i have no idea today i just felt like ranting.

Synopsis of the day : IT SUCKED.

i really want to buy more clothes. F21 SPREEEEEEEEEE!

hold me in your arms

Convey

Life sucks. I haven't taken pictures for a godzillion yearssss please.

I survived Band Camp, YAY! nothing much to say about it cos everyday we just eat, play and sleep.
today we end especially early at 1pm. I stayed back in school to finish off my tutorials and watched rugby match with Quek. SA owned CJ 86-0, GO SAINTS!

besides that, life sucks. ergh.




can't wait for saturday, 3rd 3rd 3rd! So much have happened i just want to spend a day happily again.

i want the phone! seoulmate! i desperately need a new phone, gotta update my gadgets!

today i sat in front of the bitch and decided that my life shall not revolve around tearing for her mistake

Forboding

Band camp............

kill me.....................

so tired..

怎么走

I miss you my friend.


An unforgivable mistake will always remain that way; nobody has to say anything. You and i know both know how things will end.


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oh man can you see the little photo? Its an icon so i can't enlarge. Anyhow, i like Kim bum (Yi Jung)'s action. Cos quek always do it too!

it feels good to have someone who will love you and promise to take care of you. People are imperfect and they make mistakes. The most beautiful thing is after learning your mistakes, you move on and create greater sparks in the story.

but when you have something smiling on you, it is often at the expense of another most precious thing in your life.

Band camp from fri to sun, maybe i can blog with Joanne (lurb lurb)'s laptop, see how!

SCHOOL SUCKS.

Freedom

Freedom is nothing without boundaries.

no?

I wish i had more freedom. To do things my way and the way i like it without feeling the fear of failing other people's expectations or demands.

But freedom without boundaries is not freedom anymore. I don't know how to explain. I feel so melacholic all of a sudden.

Just take me away far away to some place where nobody knows me and i can enjoy life as it is. the essence of life is to take away stress, pressure, and irritating people.

oh, let me bring along Quek too. must have company :D

Moonlight

I feel extremely un-filial. I failed to wake up to "Sao Mu". Sorry grandpa. But, dad said he didn't want me to go any way because, idk why. I would like to go though. He's the only grandparent i know, and have lived with and is deceased. Those days are just not worth remembering.

I TRULY HATE PAIN AND DEATH. - my life motto.

Easter is, whirlwind-y. It didn't used to be like that. My life now is pretty much preoccupied by band band and only band. Sitting in the SAS band room for consecutive hours after hours, raising my cornet and putting it down, listening to g-ism, occassionally glancing at Quek to remember how to smile. Although we are focusing on performing and not winning the award, nobody can deny that amount of stress and pressure and expectations to get the GWH (damn) is increasing exponentially, on those who care.

I am suppose to be doing Lit now. As usual, bof has got me before charles dicken. OBVIOUSLY.



awwwww banana in pyjamas, my favorite!

Quek say this is the edward cullen shot -.- (because he looks like edward, according to him. HAHA. but i said, i don't look like bella at all. guess what was his response? "no no, you're more like, keira knightley." WTH. yeah go on and laugh, because i laughed too.)

Goodbye world, i hate it that i am tanner than him D:

I COUNT THE COLORS IN HIS EYES

why can't i read korean. all the official websites are in freaking korean and translation doesn't work. Dammit. I CAN'T READ MORE ABOUT KIM BUM, HOWWWWW D:

BOF is growing on me, way faster beyond my imagination. HAIZZZ what to say korean drama again.......

Unnecessary

I feel unnecessary.

Kai Xuan

Yesterday was .... fun, exciting, dangerous, tiring, and "chinese".

Q and i went to polyclinic to get our MC for missing sports day. And as usual being himself, a lousy liar, the doctor wanted him to go for a lab scan and refer him to a hospital because his heartbeat fell below 50/min.

Soon we found ourselves paying for MY consultation and leaving the polyclinic. A few hours later his doctor called and loads of drama took place, and me, his "sister", had to clear all his shit.

So everything was safe in the end. And that was the dangerous essence of our day, and also the major cause of why we were tired.

It was "chinese" because we watched Red Cliff 2 together at my house. I must say i've changed my mind about action movies, war and battles. They can be quite interesting. ESP TAKESHI KANESHIRO. ZOMG SOOOOOOOOO HOT. and he was a dam intelligent guy (Zhu ge liang) in the movie. TOTALLY OWNED TONY LEUNG PLZZZ.

Q dam lousy, rely on english subtitles. you must hear how he pronounce "cao cao" and "zhou yu". Average people will laugh like mad.

So we went bugis to buy my wallet! Didn't make it for Haji Lane cos we were both so tired and, moody. D: Bugis' Accessorize sucks. We went Raffles City's outlet and got my wallet! TEEHEEE dam chio. I REALLY WANTED PRIS ONE, BUT, CANNOT COPYCAT! thank you Q for the walllllet, i swear you're the best.

We had dinner at Thai Express and vrooom home. Super tired...

going Vivo soon to meet C, Ais, and Pris. WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN TO MY LIT ESSAY?

who gives a shit.

Anw, i got a rotten B for PW. Its already good, considering the fact that we lied and lied. HAHA.

Embarrassing moments of yesterday : i was watching 27 dresses on my iPod on the bus and Q was playing PSP. I laughed (i thought, softly) at this dam funny scene but in fact it was quite loud. ZOMG everyone stared at me and he shifted his body away from me. HUMPH.

and, on my way home on the train, i took out my iPod and continued the movie. LO AND BEHOLD I LAUGHED AGAIN, and this time, to myself. After sniggering for a few seconds i looked up and realise i was alone, and people just thought that i'm like some mad woman because my hair really tells them so.

Moral of the story? DON'T WATCH FUNNY MOVIE IN THE PUBLIC.

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actually i hate this kind of post. recounting what happened. D:

am i living on the happiness that occurred in the past, or living for the more happiness to come in the future?

why am i not doing anything at all?

this is so dam hard.

Peektures

I WANT THE QUAD CAM. $35 ONLYY.

Korean bag spreee!

cameras and more cameras!

YAYness to sports day. and i don't really give a shit about PW results, so.... whatever (:

can't wait for tmrw I WANNNNNA GET A NEW WALLLET (:

SOS

Saints On Stage launch tomorrow!

I am wearing Shafiq's uber huge L size shirt. Dammit pjs?!

oh i am going out to town with clique tomrrow aft GP lecture! Hopefully it won't fail!

and, all the best to SPSMB. i will cut off my head with you guys don't get GWH cos its so damn impossible. I have faith in you BOYS!

and why hasn't U4DK replied my emaillll i want my dresssssssssss.

materialistic desires have taken a toll on me

best

Life at its best.

Fifteen insanities

1) i am an evil woman. :/

2) i have to be more understanding.

3) life sucks because the j2s cannot get our Saints On Stage shirt (we waited for 1.5 years) but the j1s get them so quickly.

4) i have to love more people instead of hating, gossiping, and "tsk"ing them.

5) I want $, so i can buy all the tops and bottoms i tried at Topshop, Fox, and Esprit at Parkway just now. They're so dam nice i swear i want them VERY MUCH.

6) i hate the minah working at Animal. Absoutely spoiled my mood to shop, or even try on the dress. Quek was just checking the price out for me, and while we were searching for the tag, the biatch rolled her eyes and went "its 109" and looked away. OH PUH LEASE WHO IS THE ONE THAT'S WORKING AND SERVING CUSTOMERS. I should think that you're in need of money more than we do because maybe you need the money to support your loser maht bf, or probably to finance all your cigarettes and drinks and ugly hair dye (her hair dam ugly). I AM SO DAM PISSED OFF WHY DID SUCH A NICE PLACE LIKE ANIMAL HIRE TWOOOO FRIGGING MINAHS. I thank God i didn't try the dress, because another minah who looks pregnant was wearing it. BAD MODELS. ugh, *spit fire* i was sooo angry i wanted to scold her but i walked out and went "i am going to come back someday and throw money at her. its not like i cannot afford it lor!"

Quek: "but we really cannot afford it now what."

He was being totally anti-climax. humph

7) my parrot is dam freaking noisy. I don't mind if he talks. but he just scream and scream and scream. I swear my family will have hearing disorder sometime soon because of him!

8) past two days were rather tough. It feels like youth nowadays are under so much pressure to perform. We are given too much expectations, and there exist too much competition too. I just pray that things will get better for us, and for everyone out there who is trying to cross a hurdle in their lives.

9) Had a long night yesterday. Thought and talked things out. Now i feel things will get better. What he say is true (: and i will definitely change. I'm sorry Q. we both have enough things to deal with and fighting is just not too advisable. I'm glad we stopped and learnt our lesson. <3 you.

10) I think parkway is a dam cool place. Cos their topshop is sooo empty i can keep trying different tops, dresses and bottoms. HAHAHA. I love shopping with Q he picks out stuff for me and i will just go into the fitting room and try. Although now we are both in recession, i'm sure when things get better we will go on a crazy shopping outing!

11) I want thai food. TOM YUM SOUP. CHICKEN WING. TOFU. FISH CAKE. ZOMG DROOLS.

12) have i mentioned, I REALLY WANNA BUY MORE BRA? La senza, cotton on body, une nana cool, young hearts!!! Although people can't see, but they seriously play a part in shaping how good i feel about myself that day. If i wear a cute polka dot bra, i will feel dam happy and cute for the whole day. OH MAN BUT BRA, THEY ARE SO EXPENSIVE D: Girls!

http://www.unenanacool.com.hk/product.htm Goo! It's dam cute.

13) going back to watch Boys before Flower. i better finish the series before Colleen starts laughing at me "HUHHH YOU MEAN YOU HAVENT FINISH OMG THAT'S DAM SLOW LAAA" not to forget she hates slow people. D:

14) so don't feel like going to school tomorrow but guess what? THURSDAY AND FRIDAY ARE HOLI-DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

15) therefore, life rocks.

Life sucks

"Life sucks."

--Joanne Lim

I haven't really counted how many more weeks, or days i have left in this band. and when they last told us it is only going to be 5 weeks more that i will remain in this band; 5 weeks more that i can touch and play my cornet. Band life isn't exactlythe most exciting life you can get. But definitely it is something i've never regretted wanting. 5 weeks is simply too short. It feels like i just played alongside Bean and the rest of the j2s for my first performance as a guest band for SAS concert at the Esplanade. It feels like i just attended my first band camp in SAJC, slogging our way through and working very hard for Saints E Muzica. It feels like i just came back from the perth trip with my batch. Everything just took place so quikly.

Time often arrests us in the most unwary moments. It will sieze you any moment when you don't take notice. Now i only have 5 weeks left, i am so astounded i have absolutely no idea what is the best way to make full use of the time i have. I guess i just wanna play hard. (pun intended)

sooooo, Syf. even though i am so dam fearful of you, i really just want to try my best for the band and see how far we can go. Afterall, the expectations that is upon all of our shoulders are rather tough to contain.

Band prac tomorrow : 9-5.

I am quite happy though. I love my section, i love my juniors, they're all so adorable and lovable i wanna carry them home. hahaha. and of course i love quek, so with him around, band prac will never suck.

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad

Carry you around when your arthritis is bad

All I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches

Build you a fire if the furnace breaks

Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you

Kiss you

Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you

Feed you

Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink

Put you to bed if you've had too much to drink

I could be the man who grows old with you

I wanna grow old with you

I will die again for him to sing it to me over and over again.

When he sings, his eyes shine. awwww

i have a song to sing too. used to be my alltime favourite. Loser emo song

I'm sorry i'm bad i'm sorry i'm blue

I'm sorry bout all the things i said to you

And i know i can't take it back

I love how you kiss i love all your sounds

and Baby the way you make my world go round

and i just wanted to say

I'M SORRY

I'm so sorry for the things i've done or said. D:

<3

Weak strong

hello i am in the school's com lab i finished my gp essay!

*i hate it when i can only blog about school, because that is the only thing happening in my life, sadly.*

btw i am such a loser. i failed my 2.4km run, i took 18.13mins DO NOT LAUGH.


hELLO, THIS IS AISYAH, SY AWESOME FRIEND. SHE ASKED ME TO HELP HER BLOG.

i didnt type those. asshole.

Wake

I am so tired from a uber long day in school. ended at 6.30 and went to pick up my cornet for a little practice. D:

did 5 stations.

and that is my mundane life.

Now, time for GP essay dammit.

Good news, i got a B for my Econs! SHOCK SHOCK SHOCK.

thank God (:

they say quek is a lucky charm. i think so too !